Footprints

"I don't want to leave any footprints on the sands of time". I know that this blog can be considered a footprint, but I might delete it before I die. I use this blog in my search for human beings that understand me and share the same feelings as me. If you are one, please write me a line, a comment, give me a sign. Thanks.

The Beginning

"The inward journey begins only when you understand it clearly that anything outside is not going to give you contentment." There is always this contradiction in me: I get to realize that the outside is empty so many times but then I tend to forget and come back. I can't yet let go of the outside. It drags me closer every time I try to escape.

The Backstage of Life

"When you become a witness, you enter the backstage of life - and there things are really absurd - you start seeing things as they are. Everything is illogical, nothing makes sense. But that is the beauty of life..."

Making room for new ideas

An old story relates an incident where a young man claiming to want to learn something new about the art of Zen visited a famous Zen master. It was obvious to the master at the outset that this young man had already thought he had reached an understanding well beyond his years, but that he was coming to the master simply to be able to say to others that he had indeed studied with the great teacher. The master invited the young man to share a cup of tea with him and he proceeded to fill the young man's cup. When the tea reached the top of the cup, the master continued to pour more tea from the pot. After a short while, the tea began to run over the cup and onto the floor, and, finally, the young man could not contain his anxiety and shouted "stop, the cup will hold no more." "So it is with any idea," said the master, "you must first empty your cup before it can again be filled."

The problem for me is: How to empty my cup? If you know a method, please let me know. Please.

Giving a second per day for peace

Please give just a second per day to think about peace and how you can create peace in this world. Just a second!

Do you believe in fate?

I don't believe in fate. I can't believe fate is driving me through my life. How can fate exist if now, right now, if I want to run, I run, if I want to eat, I eat, if I want to cry, I cry, if I want to dream, I dream? How can you tell me that my fate is written somewhere and I just follow it? I ran because it was written, I ate because it was written, I cried because it was known that I will cry, and I dreamed because I was supposed to dream. NO, NO, NO. I can think and I can feel all by myself. I have a mind and I have a soul. OK, I agree that around me there are other factors that happen without my interaction but I, myself, here, I can decide what happens next to me. Ok, I didn't get to choose if I should get into this life (see my previous post), but I still have something to say about my life. So, don't try to bring me the "fate" story because I would not listen to you.

The feelings are an issue in this society

One of my best qualified coworker just told me that she is leaving the team because she has feelings for somebody else from the team.
She said that our manager recommended her to do this. But why? What is wrong with having feelings for someone you work with? It will just make work more pleasant.

I'm sad anyway. I'm sad for living in a time when I don't want to live. I don't belong here. I don't. And I'm so sorry that nobody asked me before I was born: "do you like this world in which you are about to be born?" No, I wasn't given this option and here I am, in a world where I feel that I'm not. There are beautiful things in this world but ... what is wrong in it is the people. People fight each other, hate each other, kill each other and love is long gone. I'm so alone.

Is this bad or good?

For me, life it's a struggle for defining what is bad and what is good. And I never succeeded in defining it yet. People have different opinions about it and that is why it is very hard. If I had been alone on this planet maybe it would have been easier. But I'm not. I meet someone that says "it's good" and later I meet someone else that says "it's bad". So I'm confused. If I could only talk to "God" from time to time... 'Cause he is alone and so he is not confused by anybody.

No time for me only

Don't you feel you never have time for yourself? There is always something I have to do, it's either job related, family related or friends related. But it’s so hard to find some time only for you...

my reason in life

I'm still in search for a reason for my life. I've heard many thoughts about it but I couldn't just agree on them.
Did you find a reason for your life?