Life and death

We are all here just to disappear sooner or later. Life is very precarious, accidental, any moment anybody can go.
Never ask "why". Life is without any "why" and death is without any "why". The "why" cannot be answered, need not be answered. Life is not a problem that can be solved, neither is death. Life and death are both parts of the mystery which knows no answer.

Life: A sack of stones or gems?

Early one morning, before sunrise, a fisherman went to a river. On the bank he felt something underfoot, and found it to be a small sack of stones. He picked up the sack, and putting his net aside, squatted on the bank to await the sunrise. He was waiting for dawn to break in order to start his day’s work. Lazily he picked a stone out of the bag and threw it into the water. Then he cast another stone and then another. In the absence of anything else to do, he kept tossing the stones into the water, one by one.

Slowly the sun rose and it became light. By that time he had thrown all the stones away except one;the last stone lay in his palm. His heart almost failed him when he saw, by daylight, what he held inhis hand. It was a gem! In the darkness, he had thrown a whole sack of them away! What had he lost unknowingly! Full of remorse, he cursed himself. He sobbed and cried, almost out of his mind with grief.

He had accidentally stumbled upon enough wealth to enrich his life many times over, but unknowingly, and in the darkness, he had lost it.

There is darkness all around and time is fleeting. The sun has not yet risen and we have already wasted all life’s precious gems. Life is a vast treasure trove, and man does nothing with it but throw it away. By the time we have realized the importance of life, we have whiled it away. The secret, the mystery, the bliss, the deliverance, heaven – all is lost. And one’s life is spent.

I recognize, out of my ignorance and in the darkness, I have taken for granted that the sack of life is filled with nothing but stones. The faint of my heart simply accepted defeat. I'm looking for reasons to believe there are still gems in life, while in reality, I only need to open my eyes and see. There is still hope that I'm not 100% lost.

What is the real sense of life?

Even at my age I don’t understand life, I don’t understand why am I here, and what I need to do. I don’t understand if I should wish for something or simply not wish. For now, I pray for peace.

You know, I can go with you

Once, I was just walking in the city, admiring the buildings and the sun light reflecting on them, the green and gray colors, breathing the fresh air of the morning.

It was some sort of celebration in the city and a lot of people from out of state were there.

At a stop light a woman asked me where is the S. hotel. I happened to know where because I stayed once there. So I start explaining her how to get there. It wasn't simple, take right take a left, go until there, take a left take a right... I noticed how she got lost in my explanations and suddenly I realized I don't have a target in my walking and I could just walk her to the hotel. So I offered to walk with her to the hotel and everything stopped at that point. She quickly thanked and turned her back and left.

I only offered to get her there, nothing else. Didn't mean to scare her away. Ooops.

Finding someone to talk to is hard

Finding someone to talk to is so hard these days.
People around you are just focusing on their lives while online, I don't know where to start.
Finding even a pen pal is not a trivial job. I don't know how to approach someone and say that I just want to talk about anything and everything, about love and about science, about life and about death... If you read this and you are looking for a friend, write me. Thanks.

I feel so lonely

I feel so lonely in this world. I need someone I can talk about what is in my heart, what is in my soul, what is in my mind. I need someone? Is it you? Please drop me a line... Thanks.

Just a Game

Somebody sent me this link with a game: http://www.poweroversoftware.com/GameIntro.htm
I find it so challenging and entertaining is the same time.

I got far enough with the warmup: http://www.poweroversoftware.com/gamet/ until I got stuck with the colorful question: " + - - = ? "
As for the main game - I still can pass over the first page: " The first ones are important! "

Finding something

Zen saying: "If you want to find something, you need to stop looking". Deep inside me I feel that is true. You become so focused and busy on the looking "process" that with time you forget what you were looking for in the first place.

Drop comparing and life is really beautiful

We define happiness by the things we have that are "better" than what the other people around us have. We feel happier if our neighbor is doing "worse" than us. Why?

The Goal of Life

Do we have a goal in life that we have to accomplish? I mean, come on, let's recognize it, we all are going to die, sooner or later. What happens when we die? I don't know, but that is not my point. My point is: "Is there something that I and you have to do before we die?" I mean, although I don't know what happens after we die, I don't think it is the end, I don't think our being disappears just like that. It might get through a transformation, or it will be "transferred" somewhere well, but we don't disappear. The question is: is there something in this life that can influence what happens when we die?

I tried many things, I hoped many things, but nothing happened. I feel that everything I do is in vain. Nothing happens! But then I realized that maybe I don't have to actively look after something, because the fact that I am looking after something, might create this hope for now, and the illusion later that I did it, I found it. But then it is just an illusion in my mind. Or a consolation at least, that I've done everything I could, and how can I be wrong? Wrong is the root of the idea itself. I need to stop for something. I need to stop creating illusion. I don't need to do anything. Just be, watch, breath, sleep. Melt into life.